I'm Wilde's Child

Tears Behind Her Mask

2009-07-12T22:52:00.000+08:00

Behind the mask is untold hurt. It's so real I could feel it grip my chest each time I try to breathe. I don't know how to express my pain in words. Perhaps, a picture would do. It's my only way to channel my feelings.

Despite knowing where the thorn is, I'm just too afraid to remove it. I've made several feeble attempts to rid it once, but it felt more like I was buying time and wasting it on hope that it would one day heal.

I've been living with this thorn for as long as I can remember. I don't know if I could ever live without it. Right now, I'm just weighing the odds of living with a scar or a wound that would one day turn gangrene. I don't know which is more painful.

Oh Doodle Day!

2009-06-23T22:21:00.007+08:00

I am doodling to de-stress. I am tired and cranky now. My tummy is not feeling good. Not sure if it was the dimsum this afternoon or the chocolate walnut cake or maybe gastric. Thoughts about tight deadlines and whether I could meet my KPI and bosses' expectation are killing me. Ack!

The War

2009-05-02T14:24:00.001+08:00

** This was written when I was 15 for a Poetry Recitation Competition. This was how I saw war in the eyes of a teenager. **

The angry blasts of guns roared in the midst ~ A piercing scream filled the cold, still air ~ A thousand footsteps on the run ~ Dead bodies strewn everywhere.

The blood still lay fresh and red ~ The bodies lay still and dead ~ But no one cared, for no one dared ~ Or else, that too, could be their fate.

Screams for help, cries for mercy ~ Were only met by the cold cruel rifle ~ They slayed the men, killed their wives ~ and the children dead, in the violent battle.

This war has claimed many a life ~ From the bitter start, till the grieving end ~ Sounds of wailing from no where ~ Pools of tears and bloodshed, here and there.

The lucky ones escaped death ~ But the rest were left to fate ~ The chances to live were very slim ~ Because rescue came, just too late.

Though they suffered pain, ~ With the crying of the rain, ~ The soldiers showed no sympathy ~ They pointed their guns, and aloud came a shot -BANG! ~ And the rest, was history...

I had run many a mile ~ My shoes all torn and my flesh bled ~ The faster I ran, the further I went ~ My life, was just beneath my feet.

But if I failed, I shall never return ~ My soul shall stay with those gone ~ But if indeed, I managed to escape ~ I shall reach that peaceful land by dawn.

Hiding in fear, but buried in angerI cried, ~ "Why do people start the war?" ~ "To claim all lives? To kill the peace?!" ~ It's not a game at all.

The deaths and ruins made a ghastly mess ~ The war had made it worse ~ For it sparked many a protest ~ It was just like a deadly curse!

Sad and tragic was the ending ~ The war had brought upon us ~ Imagine the innocent lives all gone ~ The war is so unjust.

Numbing Silence

2009-04-24T23:20:00.004+08:00

Stab me with your silence
Just to watch me bleed
As your blade twists
Little by little

Watch me wilt
As my colour drains
Rotting on the pavement
In pale sheets of numbness

Karma

2009-04-23T20:30:00.001+08:00

Read me
Like an open book
But you won't understand
A single word
My language's foreign

Suffocate me
With your silence
It's all right
I won't hurt
My body's numb and broken

Crush me
Like fine sand
I've been dead
For the longest time
My soul's been trodden

Condemn me
To hell's fire
Let flames engulf
this once solid union
A crumbling foundation

Torture me
With your ignorance
And foolishness
Before you realise
It's a mirror reflection

2006-06-25T14:51:00.000+08:00

Smiling faces in masquerades
All behind the same façade
Nothing garish, nothing plain
Oscar actors all at large

Civil words, they carefully weave
Smooth and flawless, none too crude
Poison laced, bitter traced
None of them are just too good

The mask they wear may hide their face
But it conceals not their eyes
The vile bitter state in them
Fools me not with all those lies

Love Me Like Before

2005-11-29T01:54:00.000+08:00

Love me, hold me
Take me back into your arms
Kiss me, want me
Need me like you did once

Is there no way to return?
Are we lost forever more?
And my heart just breaks to know
You cannot love me like before

Touch me, tell me
Everything will be fine
Keep me, save me
Walk with me across the line

I'm not asking for much - just your touch
To mend this heart, its sore
And I ache so bad to know
You cannot love me like before

You can never,
You will never,
You will never love me like before

Drink with Me 2005

2005-01-01T22:20:00.000+08:00

Moonlight

2004-10-14T22:28:00.000+08:00

Moonlight

Silvern rays atop leaves of trees
Illuminate an aura of perfect peace
Dancing silhouettes of flowers in the breeze
An enchanted moment for a perfect kiss

Beams radiating the brilliance of the moon
A sight that makes any lover swoon
Temptation peaks amidst the blue lagoon
As romantics wish it wouldn’t end so soon

Stars sprinkled across velvet skies
Like diamond dusts surrounding the moon up nigh
Nothing more majestic to the eyes
Only the moon, her beams reflecting paradise

A rush of desire penetrates the night
The play of light creates a breathless sight
Moments like these, as passion takes flight
Love spells conjured by the innocent moonlight!

** A poem that was written on a moon-less night**

Surgeon's Blade

2004-08-11T18:45:00.000+08:00

Like a surgeon’s blade
Carelessly slicing the heart
Yet, with precise incision
Brutally it was severed apart.

The pain plaguing the soul
Crushed from the massacre
As tears oozed like blood
From eyes that flowed a river.

Numbness begins to manifest
As the smarting disappears
The crippling pain now leaves
A trail of silent bitterness...

Fallen Angel

2004-08-10T16:44:00.000+08:00

Fallen I am now
To dust and soil
Thrown to earth
To work and to toil
And the world - fallen am I into it
This cold cruel world
It's too much to take
for a young innocent soul

No bitch will I be
For I shan’t sin
Let the others judge me
but their words - I won't let them in

Long ago, oh so long ago
Those very steps I had risen
Now, made me crash face down
To climb the steps again - I must!
Even when people frown

I shan't let fate decide my destiny
Fallen I am now
But fallen again - I shan't be!

**This was written when I felt that the world seem crashing down upon me, when life suddenly had no meaning, or rather, when I was on the verge of PMS**

Waves

2004-08-10T16:43:00.000+08:00

Warlords that crash
Against white shores
In rage
Yet, as the battle seems won
Inch back in defeat

The sashay of a maiden's robe
Inviting temptation
Backing away one moment
Yet, returning to tease
In a play of seduction

As storms brew
Magnificent is the rage
Engulfing blue waters
The tall mighty giants
Terrorize the shores

But let the sun out
The waters are soothed
Like soft smooth silk
Embracing land
Peace awakens slumbering men

Come Hither

2004-06-18T22:17:00.001+08:00

Ode to Trees

2004-05-11T14:39:00.001+08:00

Children of the wild
Sown eons ago
Oh how they’ve grown!
From humble souls
To greatness of a mile
Tamed by weather
Mellowed with time
Yet ageless, graceful
Standing erect
In splendid grandeur –
A fortress
Of tall sturdy pillars
Lining the halls of God
Beneath the hardened surface
Sprouts a tinge of humility
As the winds come passing
Humbled by sweet music
Amidst evergreen rustlings
Hearts soothed
Senses awakened
Among solid structures
Salvation is sought
Refuge from ravaging storms
Away from tainted lives
Lost in paradise
Peace alas!
Among these beautiful trees!

**~ Written in conjuction with the Environmental Awareness Campaign ~**

The Rebirth of Mother Nature 2004

2004-02-01T22:30:00.000+08:00

Lady in Kimono

2004-01-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

Femme Fatale

2003-01-01T11:21:00.001+08:00

When We Were Young 2001

2001-10-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

Spring 1998

1998-12-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

Summer 1998

1998-11-30T22:28:00.000+08:00